Someone from the future of your past.

Monday, December 26, 2005

Everyone has their secrets. And I have mine.

But since it’s going to be 2006 in a few days, I should come clean (a little).

When I started in university mid last year, I felt I could be anyone I wanted to be. No one in my new school knew about me, no one knew about all the shit I was up to back in my high school days. It’s not like I lied about my entire past. I was truthful when asked about it. Truthful but selective. There are big gaps in my life I would rather not talk about, and I don’t.

To be brutally honest, I didn’t like how I was in high school. Yeah, I had the grades. I hung out with the right set of friends. But my ‘extra curricular activities’ were the ones I would rather not bring up. Don’t get me wrong, I wasn’t in a gang or anything like that. Maybe everyone goes through a phase they will later be ashamed of. I’m not in denial about my regrets. I just don’t like talking about them. They are called regrets for a reason.

And then I met someone who reminds me of who I used to be. I could see now why I was infamous, I could see now how others saw me before. It’s not a pretty sight. Neither is it a pretty feeling. I used to hate Rikki for putting me in my place everytime I start to act undesirable. Now I understand why he was doing all that. Made me re-think who my real friends are.