The Suitable Unsuitable Girl

Or the Unsuitable Suitable Girl. (I still can't decide.)

They say the way to a man's heart is through his stomach. This started a chain of thoughts in my head. It led me to believe that I won't be able to win my boyfriend's whole heart cuz I can't cook a proper meal. Which led me to compile a list. A list which I decided to call "April's Pre - New Year's Resolutions Resolutions".

"April's Pre - New Year's Resolutions Resolutions"

1. Be more domesticated.
This includes actually listening to my mother when she begins to teach me how to cook and not just pretending to be listening.

2. Re-gain all the weight I lost when I started my internship.
I hate to admit it, but my clothes don't fit me in a flattering way anymore. And to tell myself, that 'No, I can't pull off a Nicole Richie.' Besides, I can’t stand my mom’s whines about how thin I’ve become.

3. Exercise.
Because it's healthy and it will tone me up. (Oh, and cuz the gym is full of hot guys.)

Anyhoo, I'm giving myself 3 months to accomplish all these. This list is supposed to be a pre-list. So I need to have them done before I do my actual list. Speaking of which, where the hell did I put this year's list? Hahahaha.

But I'm serious about this. I really am.

I’ve learned that when you put your heart into something and work towards it, you can get. And that once you’ve stopped caring so much about what others will think of you, you can be happier, and will be happier. I’ve turned into such a cynic that I couldn’t and didn’t believe it when someone is taking me seriously. Yeah, I’m talking about the significant other. Aaaawwww, makes me wanna sing out loud. (getting cheesy…)

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3 more months to Christmas.
I hate the fact that I won't be able to fly back to Manila for the holiday season cuz I've got classes. I hate the fact that everyone I know is flying back to Manila for Christmas but I'm not. And my dad will be working. Not that I mind THAT much. Of course, the work is the one that feeds me. The work is the one that gives me all my creature comforts. I'm getting grumpy, I shall stop that now.

2 more months till the end of my internship.
I can't wait to go back to school. I miss my friends. I miss waking up late. I miss everything about being a university student. Not that I hate work. It just doesn't interest me cuz it's so different from Mass Comm, yeah it's not Mass Comm related at all.

1 more month till my mom goes on a holiday to Manila.
Without me. Cuz I've got work. Damn work. DAMN WORK!!! My mom will get to enjoy for 2 weeks while I slave away at work. I'm making a list of things that I want from the Philippines. Like dried mangoes, chocnut, dalandan juice, ube ice cream, putobungbong, bibingka, sidewalk fishball, sisig…oh my, they are all food. Drool……

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I need to grow a backbone. I need to start thinking for myself and on my own. Okay lah, maybe I'm a little spoiled but really, it's hard to break away from all the comforts that I've grown so accustomed to. When people start to shower me with tender loving care I tend to be very dependant on them. I can't help it! Come on, tell me, is there anyone here who wouldn't want that kind of attention?

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